by Ruth Allison
I have had a breakthrough! Thanks, God! I was listening to a Graham Cooke CD, one which was sent as a bonus and he said that God speaks to our hearts, not our heads. This struck me.
That night, I had a revelation - I have been functioning out of my head all my life, and not my heart. Until 25 or so years ago, I didn't know I had a spirit/heart! I accepted this teaching, but it couldn't impact my life because of the mindset I had.
As background, my parents, knowing that the Church was not doing what it should be doing, had joined a group called Moral Re-armament, which taught that each week, one should examine one's life to see if one had lived by the 4 Absolutes - honesty, love, purity and unselfishness. Very legalistic and religious.
Being the eldest child, I received more of this teaching than did my sisters. I've had prayer to cut myself off from this, but didn't realise I still had this mindset. I knew there was a lie somewhere, but didn't know what it was.
This is why I had such difficulty hearing from God. It was all from my head. I'm sure that God did talk to me, and guide me, but I always HOPED it was Him. So now I'm asking God to activate my heart. I CAN hear from God.
So thank You, God, I praise and bless your Name.