Burn out to Opt out

by Rosemary Williamson
(Australia)

I am filled with sadness as I read this and yet hope for the future. My husband took his own life on November 20 2019. He left no notes, no explanation, however, I know he was worn out, burnt out and unreplenished. He was afraid to 'fail' yet again and was unable to see the resources that were surely there. He was a prophet and a problem solver and yet it all became too much, too much chronic anxiety, too much pressure, too much pain, blinding him to the resources that were all around him.
In this time of intense grief, I can see where he was and also that I could allow myself to be sucked into that vortex of hopelessness, so every day I am being intentional about caring for myself (no-one else can do it for me). I am choosing to make myself participate in activity, swimming, which I find so relaxing, bushwalking - with a group -so that I am not wandering aimlessly and taking better care of my body (although still not eating well or much).
There are still problems all around me, the business that caused Frank so many heartaches and anxieties, I am now having to learn on my feet and it would have been so easy to close my eyes and declare bankruptcy and then depend on my children! I am engaging with counsellors and business consultants and I will move forward in a way that will honour my husband's life.
I am going to print out this blessing, to remind me every day to frame those problems that arise, with hope and not fear.

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Jan 18, 2019
honoured
by: lois

Rosemary, i am honoured that you share this here. i read about Frank's passing and wondered what happened. this saddens me deeply. as a RG prophet, i know the despair that can drive one over the cliff. i am so pleased you are taking care of yourself and you are walking as a son at the same time, walking in a way that brings honour to Frank's like. wow.

please email me if you want to connect. i am thankful for the support you have around you. bless, bless, bless this part of your journey.

hugs.

Jan 24, 2019
Psalm 71 encouragement for Rosemary
by: Linda (among the gum trees)

Oh Rosemary I just read this - thank you for the willingness to sow into the land - I can relate to your emotions & your husband's feelings - this is a good reminder for me that why we think others might be 'better off without us'- that it is a deception and lie from the enemy.

I pray that your community will surround you at this time...

My prayer of blessing and wrestling for you:
Psalm 71:19-24 The Voice (VOICE)

God, Your justice stretches to the heavens,
You who have done mighty things!
Who is like You, O God?

You have made me see hard times: I’ve experienced many miserable days,
but You will restore me again.
You will raise me up
from the deep pit.
You will greatly increase my status
and be my comfort once again.

I will praise You with music played on a harp
because You have been faithful, O my God.
I will sing praises to You with the lyre,
O Holy One of Israel.
I will shout for joy
as I sing Your praises;
my soul will celebrate because You have rescued me.

All day long I will declare how Your justice saved me,
for those who have plotted to bring me harm
are now ashamed and humiliated.

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